Thursday, November 7, 2013

I learned a valuable lesson tonight....that all the lessons I've learned, the culmination of my 26 years and some time alive, I know absolutely nothing about my being. That is to say I have masked a lonely existence with work, anger and cynical walls.  I realize in my honesty that I don't sleep at night. That my actions and choices had consequences.  I have to concede that I miss home, the feeling of home.  I have neglected my relationships with friends and family, who in all their love have let me perpetuate this neglect.  So it's here I am, 2 am before an exam, possibly failing a class, miserable and no clue.  I think I'm going to return home very soon. I guess I'm trying to find that balance and equilibrium. A little solace in my other wise lost feeling.   

Thursday, December 20, 2012

I have seen the enemy.....

It's been 6 months since I posted, six months since I shared anything, VI months since I decreed I would change.

I have rid myself of much, but not enough.  I am at $4,000 donated.  I threw away all my year books, I sold about $500 worth of books, cloths misc. items.  I recycled at least a hundred pounds of crap. 

I decided to leave the military, I decided to leave the government,  I still have to leave the war.

I was accepted to the University of Montana.  A nice place where no one knows me, and I don't know anyone. 

The monsters are advancing, and the devils hands have been busy.  Waiting patiently, waiting in my dreams,  methodical chess moves, a pawn slides forward, a rook back,  waiting for the day were we have no more to plunder, no more truth, and doesn't matter.

Happy Holidays,
Don't buy anything
It won't make you happy, just lonely tomorrow.

A Debt owed to No One

It has been 100 days since I paid off all of my credit cards. It's been 30 since I paid my car off.

Tuesday, July 3, 2012

The course of course...

In the few weeks I have been moving into a "new" apartment. After 5 years of living alone I now share an apartment with Diggy Si.  Definitely an adjustment for my solitude lifestyle, however so far so good.  This also frees up $400 a month in rent to put towards my debt or savings.

Speaking of which I have been credit card debt free for a 2 months...F*!@#$$ AWESOME!  Not that I had a lot of dept, only about $900, which is not unmanageable or even irresponsible for my income.  That being said i can't stand knowing I owe money and that I am losing money due to interest.

I have my car loan down to under $4,000, I plan on paying this off in July and August.  I plan on being completely dept free by August 15.

Update on the "Stuff" I have been slowly going through the items in my world and doing inventory, I will post a list of everything I will be selling.  Anyone can make an offer if they wish to buy.  I am at about 2 boxes of clothes to donate...this is growing every time I enter my closet.

Where I stand,

Donations $2,000

By the by,

Look for the new documentary from a blogger and awesome site; man vs debt. (

Thursday, May 24, 2012

A Short Story About My T.V.

A Short Story About My T.V.

For the past 4 years I have had a bank account for major purchases.  In a habit I developed to mitigate major purchases I set up a savings account to stash away money every month to buy large or expensive items.  I never liked the idea of credit cards and buying something that I didn't have the money for, at 15% interest.  I set the account up in June 2007.  On more then one occasion I have withdrawn hundreds of dollars to go to a store to buy a T.V.  On every occasion I had the same outcome, I put the money back into the account.  When the time came I would get cold feet and not buy a T.V., place the money back into the account, just to revisit the same purchase the next month.  Yesterday, I closed the account.

The story of my T.V. is simple, it's still sitting in the store.  After 7 years of not owning one, why am I going back and forth on buying one?  It all comes down to The Network.